Since moving back home, I haven’t had one job offer. I applied to basically everything, did many interviews and still nothing. Every morning I wake up in such a shit mood, it’s hard not to feel like a waste of space, when you’re legit doing nothing in your life. July is gonna make 9 months unemployed NINE! I have so many student loans to pay back and I’m honestly just drowning in depression. I wish people knew how it felt and to make it worse, my close friends are away, the ones here hit me up once in a while to hang out but they have friends other than me so I’m not always being contacted..I’m at home majority of the time when parties are out.
My mental health has gotten worse since moving here and it’s come to a point where I just want the pain to stop. I just wanna stop feeling this way, I’m tired of crying and beating myself up. But it’s the feeling that gets worse everyday and since summer’s here, when everybody’s enjoying it with their friends. I have to pick n choose cause I dont have the means to be everywhere this carnival season.
If anybody has any advice please feel free to share it with me. I’m really at my breaking point and it’s hard to see pass it.
everything sucks
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